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31 October 2006
Tired...=.= This morning I actually came out from the house at 7.30am, but halfway while walking I realised that I had forgotten to take my Maths textbook so I went back. By the time I came out again, it was about 7.35am and I saw the bus approaching the traffic junction. I hurried to cross the road and ran to the bus stop and saw Ms Chew there. First time seeing her on her way to school in the morning. Had History lesson first thing in the morning and Mrs Chong gave us more homework from the workbook when I've not even completed the previous exercises. Then, it was Maths lesson and Ms Tan released the class 10 mins earlier for recess. Chemistry lesson was spent drawing circles as it was all about Chemical Bonding. I didn't have a stencil so I used a 50-cent coin and a 10-cent coin to draw but it was still kinda tedious though. After lessons, I went to eat lunch with 3 others and then Nydia I went to Popular to search for the circle stencil. However, we were disappointed to hear that it was out of stock. =[ I'm sick of drawing circles already! Having to keep drawing circles for both Maths and Chemistry is damn boring... -_- Tomorrow's gonna be one of the worst days cos I'm going to have History, S.S and Physics! All these are the subjects that I don't favour at all. Ok, there's nothing much to say already. Got quite a bit of homework to do and I gotta get started soon! 30 October 2006
Yay...=) I'm feeling quite happy today, maybe because the cold war betwen the both of us is over. I have one person to thank and she is none other than Zhuang Ying! =) She was the one who persistently tried to get some sense into me for the past few days though I had been really stubborn. :X [To zy: I owe you a treat okies...?] Well, today's only the first day of the extended lesson and there's still like... 7 more days to go. =.= Never mind, it's going to be 'for my own good' so I have to persevere!=) This phrase has long been cliched...boring... -_-'' Honestly, today wouldn't have been great if there wasn't Chemistry lesson. XD I'm glad that Social Studies had been swopped with Chemistry or else I seriously cannot imagine having 3 hrs of A & E Maths + 1 hr of S.S! Ms Chew went through the exam paper today and I'm happy that she had written 3 words on my script which were simple yet meaningful. It was 'Keep it up!' accompanied with a smiley face...=) I am happy cos I didn't receive such a compliment on my Mid-year Exam script. I'm lame, you may think...but it's ok. Then, just now, Ms Tan released the class half an hour earlier and I was left idling around the school while waiting for Wen Yan and Jasmine. Thereafter we 3 went to Lot 1 to eat lunch at KFC and we each bought a pacifier hp trinklet which flashes in 7 different colours! Jasmine bought the blue one, Wen Yan bought the pink one and I bought the purple one. =] Jasmine didn't want to buy it at first but then WY and I insisted that we were buying that so in the end she gave in to us. Haha... =D Ok, now we 3 can be babies. Woots! (: Oh ya... I also met one of my senior from CCA at Lot 1. She graduated last year and she used to be studying the exact same course as me. The last time I saw her was the time before she got her 'O' Level results and I recall asking her if she intended to go to JC or Poly. However, just now when she tapped on my shoulder and I turned around, I was stunned to see her in a uniform that was neither of the above mentioned institutes. I'm really afraid that I may not make it to JC or Poly too as my results ain't good. I better start bucking up before it's too late! :X 'O' Level is going to decide my path so I don't wish to jeopardise my chance of getting into the course or college of my choice. 28 October 2006
In a Dilemma...=( I've just returned home from piano lesson. The teacher was fine today, didn't scold me like she always did cos of my mum's feedback I suppose. I have been thinking loads about what happened over the past few days but haven't seemed to be able to come up with a better solution to my problem. I've also been reading many motivational quotes and poems and it did help a little but there's still something amiss... and that is the fact that my 'other half' is gone... ): I don't know why but I'm feeling upset now. However, it was the decision I had made in the first place and she has respected it. So... what more can I say...? I remember her asking me if we could go for breakfast on Friday at 10am. However, little did I know that the verdict would be out on Thursday... the verdict that marked the end of our 3-year friendship. It all ended when a major quarrel between the both of us took a turn for the worse. =[ Anyway, whatever has happened can't be erased and I think it's the worst quarrel we've ever been involved in. Ok, I guess it'll probably stay this way... WY thinks that I wanna hang out with Jadeite, but she's wrong. Why would I wish to hang out with Jadeite when she's always trying to sow discord between me and her? Jadeite's always telling me that WY has her own 3-9 friends now and they even have many plans of their own. What message is she sending me? Trying to tell me that I should stop hanging out with WY? Ya, it's no doubt that the friendship between me and WY has ended and Jadeite will probably think she stands a chance now. But for 1 thing I'm sure... I would rather be alone than hang out with a backstabber! 27 October 2006
The Loss of a Friend...=( Just broken up my friendship with one of my closest friends yesterday after a fierce quarrel online. If you think I'm feeling fine, I must say I'm not! In fact, I'm feeling really terrible as I'm the cause of the break-up. I don't know if there really was a need to resort to this but there seemed like there wasn't another option... I think I've succumed to depression and it's only getting worse by the day! Ya, she felt she wasn't appreciated for her efforts of trying to console me and it's understandable cos I have been showing her that kind of 'don't try to get any sense into me' attitude. She also feels that my theory is stupid and I agree... but what can I do when my parents always compare results?? They make me feel so lousy! Not everyone takes things so easily and in fact, I'm one who takes things very hard... I've reached the dead end of the road already and I don't know what to do... One failed friendship after another and I'm the cause of it all!! Is my life always meant to be like that?? If it is so, I think I would be better off dead. I rather give my life to those who wish to live it meaningfully but are not given the chance to. I hope that ending my friendship with her will allow her to start afresh and get on with her other friends. Anyone who is with me will only suffer from the same painful destiny... I wish her all the best... Overcoming Obstacles... Lost in dark depression Not knowing where to turn I opened the windows to my soul To see what I could learn I swept up the depression Scrubbed the sadness and the hurt I put it all in trash bags And set them by the curb I found stashed in a corner Tucked high upon a shelf A treasure chest of knowledge That I could love myself And wherever my future takes me I know that I will win Because I opened the windows to my soul And let the light shine in. Hope Saxton 26 October 2006
Everything's ended... -_-'' Had Mcdonalds for breakfast this morning with Pamela, Jasmine, Wen Yan, Kimberly, Cheryl and Sakinah. I was nearly late for school but managed to arrive before the national anthem began. Today's assembly was in the hall and there was no lesson for the day. At recess, I went to pass mine and Jowell's letter-writing to Ms Low and she said that she would need us both to come back on one of the days during the school holidays to type out some essays for her. I seriously wonder why she needs us to go back to school just to do typing for her. Then after recess, it was the Deeparaya concert in celebration of Deepavali and Hari Raya and after which, it was time to receive the report book and result slip. What a 'good' grade I got for A.Maths that I don't know what say anymore. Wen Yan got it right at last... she said I'm MAD and yes I AM! I'm mad to the extent that I feel like dying. Besides, mad people should isolate themselves from everyone right? Yup, I'm ending my 3 years of friendship as it is just too good to be true. I don't deserve any friends and neither do I have the damn right to have such a good friend like her. 25 October 2006
3-8's Post-exam Celebration! =D It was damn boring at school today cos it was a whole day of movie screening and nothing else.=.= Maths and Physics lesson was spent watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. Thereafter, it was Chemistry! (: I had thought that Ms Chew was sure to use the 2 periods of Chemistry to go through the answers to the exam paper but instead, we continued to watch another movie...-_-'' After recess, Chinese lesson was spent watching yet another movie and when the time came for English lesson, my energy was almost totally drained. =[ I was in the process of falling into dreamland when Ms Low said she'll be returning Paper 1 to us. Then, when I got back my compo and letter- writing, I went to take a look at the marks I was awarded. I was happy with my compo cos there weren't any mistakes in it but letter writing wasn't that good as the teacher said I needed to give more details about my points. = Okies, gotta stop here cos I have to churn out my letter for Ms Low. She says she wants it cos the department is thinking of collating all the model essays into a book. I don't really like the idea of other people seeing my work but never mind, I'll just do whatever she wants. That's the spirit of a good student right? Haha! Anyway, the happiest part about today was the mini celebration in 3-8! Mdm Pang and Mrs Chong treated the whole class to pizza from Pizza Hut together with potato wedges and nuggets! However, there were a few 'uninvited guests' who came in and helped themselves to the pizza...= 23 October 2006
A Teacher Who Really Cares...(: Yipee! I'm in high spirits today and I don't know exactly why...XD Well, I can say that it is partly because a teacher encouraged me to buck up on both Maths and also to give my best for the other subjects. She also told me that she has seen miracles happen to other students and she believes that I could be a miracle too. (: I was kinda embarassed cos she knew I had tuition for Maths but still did badly for it. =X However, I felt really motivated and inspired by what she said to me and I have sorted out my thoughts about whether I should give up on my A.Maths. I've decided to stop crying over spilt milk and start bucking up before it's too late. I don't wanna let history repeat itself again and I'm not gonna let that happen. Yup, gotta end here cos I'm going off for tuition soon! 21 October 2006
EEKS! :X I was having my dinner when this big grasshopper jumped onto my head! Yuck... Lately, I keep having frightful encounters with insects. First, it was the void deck of my house being infested with a lot of cockroaches and now it's a grasshopper on my head. I'm so freaked out!!! Help! =X 20 October 2006
A Sigh of Relief... I arrived at school late yesterday and had to complete 3 rounds of walking around the field before I was allowed to return to class to check the temporary result slip. Well, some of my grades were unexpected cos I had initially thought that I would not have any distinctions but only a couple of Cs and even an F9. By the time I got to class, it was already about 0805am and everyone had already finished checking their results. Mdm Pang wasn't around and Ms Bek took over so I went to her and she handed me my result slip. The first thing I saw was my grade for English. I was relieved upon finding out that I had managed to achieve an A2 on the dot as my performance for SA2 wasn't satisfactory. However, as I scrolled further down the list, I saw that my A.Maths had failed by 2 marks, much to my disappointment. The ugly D7 grade practically destroyed the image of the entire result slip...=( Ok, that's quite enough about results and all. Today's Promotion Day and I really hope that the whole class of 3-8 can be promoted cos Mdm Pang has promised to throw a celebration for the class if this is so. =D 18 October 2006
Always a Failure...=[ Gonna receive my temporary result slip for checking tomorrow and I think I should treat it as a piece of trash... One look at my results and I will vomit blood instantly. My parents won't want to see it either. Sometimes I really wonder why God made me... I know he has a purpose for me but I'm not living a fruitfull life at all. In fact, I'm a burden to those around me and I feel terrible about it. However, commiting suicide just isn't right cos my life belongs to God. So what should I do then? Pray that a misfortune will befall me one of these days? I'm in a dilemma and I'm now crazy already. No one can talk sense to me anymore cos nothing makes sense to me... absolutely nothing. 17 October 2006
Going Insane Soon... I'm truly sorry for those whom I shouted at yesterday and today... I really didn't mean it cos I have seemed to totally lose control of my emotions since Monday. =( I'm feeling extremely depressed now and I must admit that even thoughts of suicide have crossed my mind. Things only got worse for me today. I received my results for English Language paper 2 and guess what...? I flunked it, by 3 marks! Wow...even the teacher was left dumbfounded when she handed me my paper. Well, the most disappointing thing is that there were people who managed to pass while I did not. Besides, everyone's expectation of me has always been so high and I am always getting stressed up trying hard to live up to their expectations. =[ I don't know why people think so highly of me when I'm nothing but a ROTTEN APPLE. I can't even pass my English now... What has become of me??? :( Have I not worked hard enough??? Why?! Why are all these things happening to me?! I think it's probably a punishment from God; my Just Deserts I guess... Ok, that's all I have to say and I have no one to blame but myself. Anyway, I just wanna thank those who have been trying to comfort me and cheer me up. I have yet to come to terms with the reality right before me and I guess it will take some time before I can get over this. However, if next year doesn't get any better, I may end up in IMH or if worse comes to worst, I may just go to sleep eternally... 16 October 2006
What a Day...=( Hey everyone, don't bother to ask me for my A. Maths marks... Let me get this straight once and for all... I got 20/80 which makes up 25%. Amazing huh? The other subjects are like shit as well and I don't wish to elaborate. Well, this is how it ends... for a brainless and good-for-nothing freak like me. What more can I expect?????????? 10 October 2006
Bad News Again! =[ Today's Social Studies paper was a hectic race against time and it was really strenuous as my hand was aching from all the continuous writing. Honestly speaking, I didn't study enough for this paper. Yesterday, by the time I came back home from tuition, it was already close to 9pm. I had my dinner and started studying from 10pm to 1.30am. However, nothing much got in and this morning, panicky as I was, I woke up at 5.45am and studied for 45 min before I prepared myself for school. However, I really thank God that I was able to write 2 essays that were of decent word length. Yesterday's Chemistry paper was manageable and it was a relief for me cos I had studied really hard for it. =) Ok, gotta end here cos I have to start mugging for tomorrow's papers-A.Maths and History! Guess I gotta burn the midnight oil again. ): 07 October 2006
Haircut...=X I just had my haircut in the afternoon and now it's kinda short. = Then, after which, I headed for my usual piano lesson with my sis and the best thing's that I don't have theory homework for this lesson.(: Anyway, the teacher should know better not to give homework in view of the exams. However, as what always happens, I got scolded by her AGAIN. She said I was blur as I couldn't get some the notes right for the 2 new pieces she wanted me to play. =( I seriously want a change of teacher soon, but it would be very troublesome so guess I have to try to bear with her in the meantime. ): I've just finished practising on one of the pieces she gave me today and it's got a really nice melody though it can be quite complicated. All right, that's all I have to say cos today's basically a boring day. Oops! I haven't quite revised for Chemistry yet and I'm gonna get started really soon. I'm not so sure about Chemical Analysis yet... Sigh... -_-'' Hope all will be fine. 06 October 2006
It was Ok...=| Yup, sat for the Maths paper today and I must say that it was all right on the whole. Both papers were manageable except for a few questions that I wasn't sure of how to solve... In fact, it has been the easiest paper yet cos the first 2 papers were really tough! = Anyway, I hope I can get a distinction for this cos my Mid-Year grade for Maths was quite bad so I really need this time's exam to pull up my marks. There's still 1 week of exams to go and that seems like forever...): I wonder why so many people already have plans to go out... I'm more worried about the exams and I don't wanna plan to go anywhere till this crucial preiod is over. Actually, the worst thing about exams is not sitting for the paper itself, but rather when the time comes to receive the results, as it could mean either good news or bad. -_-'' Just now after the paper I went with Wen Yan, Nydia and Jadeite to see Ms Chew cos we all needed help on Chemical Analysis. However, when Ms Chew was teaching, everyone seemed to be in a trance...haha... I think it's the after-effects of the Maths paper! xP Then, after 15 mins of coaching, Nydia, Wen Yan and I went to Yew Tee MacDonalds to eat. (: Nydia took so long to finish her food... She's known to be a slow eater but yet she up-sized her set meal. XD Wen Yan and I finished our food way before her and we had to wait for 'her royal highness'. Haha. Thereafter, we had ice cream but I didn't finish mine. =[ So where did my ice cream go then? Nydia played with it and smeared it all over the tray! It was totally gross man! What a thing to do at this age huh? =X Ok, I'm gonna end here for today! [1 more week of exams] =/ 04 October 2006
No Chem Lesson. Boring...): Ms Tan gave us a revision worksheet to do today. The questions were all simple and she said the EOY Exam this coming Friday will be similar to what we've done. Glad to hear that cos it means high chance of scoring distinction...Yay! =D At least there's some hope though...Yesterday, I met Ms Chew at the bus stop and she asked me how the English paper was and how my revision was getting on. I told her I'm like...damn stressed up already.=( Sigh... there's still 6 more papers to go! Wonder if I can survive till the end of this exam period...=/ Today, Ms Chew didn't come to class for lesson cos she had invigilation. The class spent 2 whole periods without any relief teacher and some people even went for early recess.-_-'' I hope Ms Chew comes to class tomorrow. Last period was English and Ms Low told us that both Mrs Tan & Ms Tay will be marking our exam scripts. I was like...OMG. They seem to be pretty strict markers to me and the other time I didn't do well when my script was marked by Ms Tay. Don't tell me it's her again?=X Anyway, that's all for today. The exam is making me go bonkers! 02 October 2006
First Paper...Sobs...=( Today I sat for the Chinese paper and I think I made a mess out of the whole thing!!!=( For the first paper, I didn't quite understand the question for the letter writing. I somehow managed to figure out that it was something to do with the breeding of mosquitos but I just couldn't express much of my content in Chinese! It would have been so much easier if only I was required to express my views in English. Well, it's seriously tough to master a language, especially when the foundation has not been built up from young. The second paper was bad too and I was feeling really tensed and stressed up. At one point, I couldn't take it anymore and had to ask for permission to go to the toilet. Tomorrow's English but I'm just as afraid cos I don't know what questions will come out for the section on free writing. I'm afraid that I'll experience writer's block and spend a lot of time trying to think of a plot.]= Sigh, the stress bomb is gonna expolde pretty soon but I hope that I won't fall ill during this crucial period of exams. If you're feeling stressed up too, don't worry cos you aren't alone. We're in the same boat...): |